Love’s Nightmare

 

I didn’t know it was you until it wasn’t. 

I didn’t know pain until you left me, face down, wallowing in a deep ocean of my tears

You left a void large enough for my heart to sink in. An abscessed pool of rotten flesh and untouched desires

I prayed for a lifeline; a small sliver of hope which I could gnaw on…a morsel of you which I could nibble on until my appetite was satiated.

My anorexic life based on a meager diet of broken promises and shattered dreams. 
I can no longer feast on good intentions and suck the marrow out of lies.

My heart and stomach are bloated and engorged, yet I still hunger for you.

You played melancholy chords and sullen crescendos on my rib, taken from you while you slumbered.

My eyes lighting the twisted path back to your heart. 
My voice is hoarse from calling your name in the darkness, yet still I wait…

Longing for my whispers to inspire you and my hands to cling to more than invisible shadows.

Every ragged breath I take to keep my love for you alive slowly chokes me.

Each implanted memory gives birth to seeds of hope, my tears watering its garden and my passion; scorching imaginary messages to you; etched in the ashes of my heart.

I never craved the morsel of sweet kisses from your lips until your memories left me bitter.